I look down at myself

 

Discouraged, disappointed feeling hopeless

Overwhelmed with guiltiness

Stressed at my situation

 

This food addiction is hurting me bad.

 Ten years I have battled

Twelve step programs, meetings , sponsors

Weighing, measuring, phone calls

 

I do well with the structure

No flour. No sugar.

Relapse when emotions surface

Start day one, again

 

 Tired, dejected, stuck

I have put energy, time

Only to fall hard

Why am I failing?

 

I know, the answer is clear

Hard to say think or write

I need to own what is mine

I am powerless over my food, my life has become unmanageable please G-d help me!